Tapping into Fall

Finally this week, autumn has arrived. The air is crisp, rain fogs the windows, sweaters wrap my bump. Friends feel cozy on long walks or during artistic collaborations. Tiny feet stomp thru the background and shrill screams and bubbly giggles follow.  

I’m warm in my heart, but still, there’s something on my mind. The anticipation chilling. 

It’s getting closer. My due date. 

You know that feeling? When SOMETHING sits on your crown, or can make you keel over with anxiety or dread...

I will say, that over the months, I’ve traversed thru the darkest parts of my fears. I’ve wandered the pathways of the unknowns. Dug deep. Disliked some parts I’ve uncovered, while I treasure others. I think it’s safe to say, with guidance and help,  I’ve emerged from the labyrinth of my last birth experience. I feel resolve. 

And in this current week, I find myself journeying into a new labyrinth. A preparation of the birth to come. A fresh start, and a knowing that I will be journeying deep into the belly of the beast. 

I will be Shedding myself again, as the tree sheds its’ leaves.

I will meet the center of the labyrinth when I meet Lake, and then again, I must find my way out. 

Emerging. Changed. 

(This analogy of a labyrinth for motherhood is absolutely epic in this book, Ancient Map for Modern Birth. This book has been so powerful for me during this pregnancy!)

The relevance of my particular journey to yours, is that we all work thru one maze, knowing that life inevitably hands us a new one at the end. 

I guess in a sense, I feel grief. A letting go of self. A shift in relationships as I know them. The first time I was naive to the coming of these things .

At the start of anything, aren’t we all a little ripe?

But when you are preparing to enter a scenario that is similar to one you've encountered before- its imperative to hold the gifts of the last experience close- and completely release what no longer serves you. 

So I’m at that point where I get to enter in with a fresh view, a crisp start. Release, let go. Be free and light!

This is when I tell you what I’ve been avoiding:
a tool I’ve been given to ease the last bits of tension, the uncertainty, and ultimately shift the old stories. Preparing me to be a real spring chicken .

It’s free. And I’m no expert,  but research I’ve read points to some significant benefits. My naturopathic Dr. shared it with me a few months ago. So I’m sharing it with you. In case you want to look yourself in the mirror. Yep- right in the eyes. And just give yourself unconditional love. Maybe that’s why it’s confronting...? 

The method is Mental Field Therapy (MFT), developed by Roger Callahan PhD. Also known as “TAPPING”.

Here’s the directions.:

I’ll be sticking to it this week, and hopefully the next 6-8 weeks. Hope to give some updates on how things sift and shift for me. Keep me posted if you tap too!